Sometimes I worry too much about what others think.
I'm an extremely self conscious girl. I don't know why. I wish I could change that. It seems, though, that every time I try I'm shot down again by something; something so little. Why does anyone have to be like this? I know everyone has self conscious moments (and don't you dare claim otherwise) but why is it necessary? What makes us that way?
Ok, that's an understatement, I worry a lot.
I wish I could be a girl who just marches to the beat of her own drum and can't hear any of the other noises around, but I'm not.I'm an extremely self conscious girl. I don't know why. I wish I could change that. It seems, though, that every time I try I'm shot down again by something; something so little. Why does anyone have to be like this? I know everyone has self conscious moments (and don't you dare claim otherwise) but why is it necessary? What makes us that way?
The world does.
Why on earth does the world matter? (I realize that sounded kinda funny, but you get what I'm saying.) The world is critical and mean. The world has it's own image of how everyone should be, and whether we claim to or not we all care at least a little bit about the world's view.
Let's put this into perspective:
I'm typically a shy girl. I hate admitting to that but I am. As I've grown up I've forced myself out of my comfort zone and tried to be a little bit less of the timid girl that I am, but in reality, I still am shy. Because I'm shy, not too many people notice me. I keep to myself, and don't really branch out. I see others in the world who are so successful because, well, people like them. They're "popular"; in the world's view anyway. I'm not saying all people who are well liked are bad, please don't think that. But it is a little disheartening when a girl who works hard at everything she does, and does her best, just get's shot down because the world found her imperfect.
I don't believe the worlds idea of perfection is correct. The only person who was ever perfect was Christ, and He was definitely not of this world.
I want to aim to be more like the person Christ wants me to be. I want to focus more on how Christ views me rather than how the world views me. I'm letting go of all my uncertainties, and insecurities. I don't want to look into the mirror and see a girl of the world. I'm not going to let the opinions of others get me down. I'm not going to let my own self ruin me. After all our biggest critic is ourselves. I'm not going to beat myself up anymore. Or cry ever again for feeling not good enough. I'm going to lean on my Savior for strength.
"These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world." John 16:33
2 comments:
Ash! You are awesome! I have never thought you were shy or self conscious! This is a great post. Thanks for reminding me that I need to over come the world :)
Beka, that makes me feel good to hear that you have never thought that. It means forcing myself out of my comfort zone worked:) You're such a sweet girl love ya!
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