11.04.2011

Hard days can help you see the things you are so thankful for

I didn't do so well yesterday guys.
My day kinda fell apart right at the beginning.
I had an appt. with an orthopedic surgeon scheduled for 12:30.
Unfortunately I went to the wrong place, and became extremely late for my appt.
That was the start of my day being not so good. I was really upset that I was so late, and I had a hard time finding the place I was supposed to go.
Once I got their I waited for about an hour and a half just to finally see the doctor.
He then took X-rays of my back, and gave me some rather disheartening news.
I have multiple things wrong, but I'm not going to go into them. Just know the answers he gave me scared me, and I felt so alone being all by myself in that doctors office. I walked out to my car shaking and in tears. I was so down, and didn't know what to do. I called my husband and explained to him what was going on. He tried to console me, and for the most part it worked, but the fear still lingered.
I went home feeling melancholy. I was tired, and didn't want to move. I tried to think of how I was trying to eat better, but that didn't even seem appealing at the time. I wanted to go to the gym, but I couldn't move off my couch I was so upset. I finally just ended up taking a nap, which I never do.
When I woke up I was still exhausted, and upset, but I started to calm down slowly.
I started to think to myself how I could be worse off,  and at least we found what the problem was instead of not getting any answers. That way we will be able to take care of what's happening to my body.
My mom called me, and I told her the knews.
My mom is very wise, and started explaining to me, how strong I was. She told me that in life we all have different challenges and trials. She said where I can deal with sickness, others could not. Where she could deal with her parents divorcing, others could not. We all have challenges in life that we are given. We need to figure out the reason why we are given those challenges and become the person God wants us to be through them. She told me that maybe because I have all those health problems I was given that trial to help others who might be suffering from something similar.
She really lifted my spirits, and I'm so thankful for my mom, and the person she is. She gave me hope when I was feeling so down.
So, shamefully I did not really stick with my workout/diet plan yesterday. But we all have days that push us down, it's just a matter of getting back up. So today I'm going to return to doing my best and working hard. Despite my physical or mental limitations.
I'd also like the thank Sky Cox for writing a sweet motivating post about me, that was another thing in my day yesterday that made me really want to keep going.
You never know who's day you can make with a compliment, I suggest giving them out like candy.
Here's to motivation and determination!

2 comments:

.just sky. said...

You are much stronger than you think! Keep going and the Lord will bless you! Good luck with everything and let me know if you need anything... like a work out buddy or just a walk and talk at the gym :)

Batash said...

Sky you are such a sweetie thanks so much! I might have to take you up on that offer:)