Here's the lowdown people
I have the hardest time being social. I don't know why, but I do. It's not that I'm shy; I just know how awkward of a person I am. I know I'll say something stupid, and get some sort of awkward silence thing, or "did you really just say something that stupid" looks. I try, but that seems to make it even worse, because then I studder, or ramble about something completely illogical. So I try to avoid social situations, because of this. Why can't I be like everyone else? Why isn't it easy for me to talk to boys, like it is for so many of my friends? To be honest, most the time I just don't feel good enough for people. Like they are above me. These thoughts plague my mind constantly, and I really want a way out. I want to be able to branch out, and meet new people without acting like a complete idiot. If any of you have some helpful advice for me, I'd love to hear it; because right now I am swiftly on a social decline.
Posted by Ashlee Schroeppel at 9:40 PM