9.07.2010

Here's the lowdown people

I have the hardest time being social. I don't know why, but I do. It's not that I'm shy; I just know how awkward of a person I am. I know I'll say something stupid, and get some sort of awkward silence thing, or "did you really just say something that stupid" looks. I try, but that seems to make it even worse, because then I studder, or ramble about something completely illogical. So I try to avoid social situations, because of this. Why can't I be like everyone else? Why isn't it easy for me to talk to boys, like it is for so many of my friends? To be honest, most the time I just don't feel good enough for people. Like they are above me. These thoughts plague my mind constantly, and I really want a way out. I want to be able to branch out, and meet new people without acting like a complete idiot. If any of you have some helpful advice for me, I'd love to hear it; because right now I am swiftly on a social decline.

5 comments:

kristen said...

Ash honest to Betsy I like hanging out with you a lot. You always make me feel very comfortable. No lie.
But these were always my exact feelings &it sucks so probably you should come down here and get over it with me because it turns out moving away &starting fresh with new faces works all kinds of wonders! &I miss you &think you're super wonderful.
Okay?

Batash said...

Oh dearest Kristen, You always make my day. I would love to move down there I really would. I just need to get out of the house more, I really think that would help, but like I mentioned, I have problems with social gatherings. Haha, hopefully I can get over this.

kristen said...

You'll get it. I believe in you.
If I can survive 3 weeks in this place &not die from social stimulation I think you'll be able to figure it out, too. &that's not even to say I'm not still awkward. Jasmine always told me to embrace the awkward though so I'm trying to take her advice now. hahah.
But for real, do you know how excited I would be if you came down to visit? Like, extremely.

caihay said...

Oh ashley.
I too, am really awkward.
when nervous, I tend to studder.
and often I make really stupid comments. One day, can we be socially awkward together?

Batash said...

Kristen, I will definitely plan a trip in the near future. Promise!
Cailey, quite frankly I'd enjoy that. It's always nice to have someone be awkward with you.