1.30.2011

Pain

A word not easily described because everyone feels pain differently. I feel pain right now. I feel broken. I've never seen my family in so much tormoil, or sadness. There is so much anguish. I couldn't even sit through sacrament meeting without breaking down multiple times. I feel so much anger, and heartbreak. Why? Why did this happen? Seeing your own father break down, and cry is probably the worst thing I've ever experienced. I'm trying to be strong. I'm trying to be strong for my family, my parents, my little siblings who just don't understand what's happened. I myself am struggling with the concept. My stomach is contorted into so many unbearable knots, that I'm trying to ignore.
I'm lucky. I'm lucky to have a guy who holds me when I'm in need of comfort. I'm lucky to have a Father in Heaven who understands. Who I can talk to. It just hurts, it all hurts so much. I'm trying not to break down. I just don't know what to do. What can I do?

I don't mean to beg for favors, but... prayers are needed. If anything for my parents. They need to feel comfort and peace right now.

3 comments:

kristen said...

Am I allowed to ask what's going on with them?

Batash said...

Just problems and stuff with my little brother.

kristen said...

ohhh. brother... :/ good luck. prayers you need, prayers you will receive. love ya.